Locked Love

The Only thing holding me back is the thought of you,
Holding on to the memories that once made me believe it was true,
Just a moment in time that I thought was forever
You sold the  dream of forever,
Living in a Bubble on the outside where lies and deceit began to build,
I loved you like a drug I swallowed all your words like a pill.
I’m trying to move on but the thought of you still lingers,
We played this back and forth game for so long,
I fell in love with you once again not realizing
Us and this relationship could never win.

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A Wolf in Sheep's Clothing

trust/trəst/

Noun:	Firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.

Tired of the false accusations blamed, for every situation
looking back on it all I begin to , second guess my self
it really wasn't it me.
A plan to blame me, so you can leave
not really a good person just someone who once needed me now has found what they need else where
now I no longer matter but when you had no one I was always there.
I feel foolish to think you where honest and loyal,
no friend to me just someone who was bound to cross me eventually
your not to be trusted
only a soul who once, had my all now has drift into a box  titled  " Just Like The Rest Of Them"
your no different from my past, just someone who camouflage
 their self well enough to make me
 believe they weren't so bad.

I Didnt Know My Own Strength

Someone use to sing this to me, as I would cry in their arms because, I struggled with things in my life, and til this day those memories replay in my mind. I couldn't stand on my own, I didn't know how strong I was until god forced me to be. I look back at all the things I have gone through and can say I made it. but this song really makes me cry every time I listen to it because those memories replay in my mind over, crying to my eyes nearly fell off, listening to this made me feel like this was meant for me.

I Didn’t Know My Own Strength

And I Crashed Down, And I Tumbled
But I Did Not Crumble

I Got Through All The Pain

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Once things die down, and everything begins to settle

The truth begins to arise…

You don’t really like me for me; Constant corrections certain smart comments of things you want me to be.

I don’t think you want me to be who I really and truthfully all I can be is me.

You would rather me, do things your way, which is saying I would lose someone of me.

Someone once told me don’t you ever change for a temporary person in your life, and I believe their right.

why pretend to be something I am not for someone who doesn’t love me for me, no correction, no hurtful comments just glad they met me.

It is hard enough maintaining sanity in this world wind of things I call life

But to remain myself seems to be the struggle

Letting someone make you feel like everything about you is wrong is where I draw the line their supposed to build you up, not bring you down

but this is all learning experiences in life

Time can't even heal

The pain from a year ago still prevails, still lingering in my thoughts flash backs run through my head. visions of feeling lied to replaying in my head. piercing certain parts of my heart, Reminding me that I once gave you all my trust. now im here, giving you it all back will result in heartbreak?The truth is I dont believe what you say, you once played me without a care but still said you loved me to keep me here based off of lies so I would stay. my love for you overflows which scares me the most, the past keeps coming back . the lies you told, the pain you cause keeps replaying back. How do I still love you when, for months you made me cry, pretending like I didnt know behind my back you were telling me lies.

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-Things started off as fairytale you where my superwoman. The one I ran to when the world was against me. The only thing I felt was real, A dream within this collapsing reality. Our heart played the same song, connected within every beat feelings of love flowing through every verse. lost in each other arms it was our comfort, believing we can with stand all obstacles, as long as it was WE....


-Time passed and the love we once share slowly faded in front of our very eyes, the smiles turned into frowns, joy turned into pain and what once was no longer is . Our passions and dreams soon drifted our dream world collapsed. Forgetting the passion and commit, leaving behind laughter and memories, wishing we could wrap just one finger around it as soon as time hit us we drifted maybe this love wasn't for ever but only for a season.....