Far away....

Being, close to someone, that's now so far away, kills me,

the only person who understood me..

i cant explain how hard it is today for me to even concentrate,

while every one else around me, seem to see it as another day,

for me its probably of the worst days of my life

you were a big part of my life and without you i probably wouldn't be where i am today...

you;ve been my angel through it all... when i think about you, it makes me smile..

when i was younger you would tell me " never let anyone detour you from your dreams"

and since day one its stuck with me...

The one who, took care of me when everyone else... left me

I truly i cant believe its been so long since you been gone

i depended on you to be here..

I needed you to be here....

there's no else who has impacted my life as much as you and today is your birthday... AND i love you and MISS YOU.. RIP...

Bad taste in my mouth...

- the after taste of a broken heart is what you left me with..

- A tart yet sour and bitter everlasting.. Feeling that I won't forget

No alert no alarm, not even a warning..

-How was I suppose to know that, this love we shared was just for the moment,

-Something to occupy ya time, while you became, my time...

-You became my escape, and now you want to escape...

-Leaving me with questions & so many reasons why..

I didn't even have a chance to cry, more of numbing sensation that started from my heart. and ended between.. My thighs

- where you once caressed now , your someone Else's.. and you could care less

- I hate to say it but used me, as a temporary fix, for the time being..

- trying to, get the memory of your ex, out your head, so you settle m for me not truly caring about my emotions just using me for NOW...

You left a bad taste in my mouth one I can't get out...

As hard as, it is to say goodbye, everything tells me I should.

Tho her heart has me in its grasp tangled up in its love, seeing no one else

I wish I truly had her heart in my hands, maybe I did, I will never know ..

Sacrificing every last breath, and ever last.. Attempt to make it work..

Feeling as if I the walls are closing, only because I'm surrounded by all your good lovin.

Snatched within a matter of seconds, no longer settling for what was, living for what should be..

Loving her from a distance, but still holding on to her heart, without her even knowing,

Caressing her.. Emotions


Kissing away her fears..


But not for long letting go .. is hard and her heart is where i wanna be, but dnt need to be.. :(