Monday, September 20, 2010

Sexually Compatible

our sex is amazing but our conversations are the worse, when were intertwined in sexual act our souls began to burst we explore each other body we become one within in this earth but when we try to have normal conversation it sounds very much rehearsed, so instead of solving the issue, we numb it with more, sex so for just one moment we can just happen to forget that mentally it doesn't work, but sexually there's no regrets. if we leave it will be something we'll regret. but the most but important thing we need we wished we could of met. its like, we live two different lives, an in one we were a set. but in the other, we strangers who wished they never met....

in my past ive lived this -soul

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Undeniable.


we pretend we don't care when our emotions show otherwise, we hide the fact that we love each others touch, we show no love out in public, but in close doors, where inseparable, we laugh at the other couples, who argue about ignorant stuff, we portray are self's as if we have no feelings so that if one of us decides to call it quits it wont hurt. we don't understand, that we have the upper hand, but still in the same instants two left feet.. our friendship has become more then that though our title maybe misunderstood or even naive, we feel each others fears.. touch each others spirits. no longer should we have to put on a front as if were nothing but strangers, eventually we should become one, not afraid of what could happen or what the future may hold, taking each others, body mind and soul and making it one, no one around us has to understand, but without telling them, they can feel it, the touch of love, the hug of joy the kiss of forever.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

If you really knew me...





Born in the summer Jamaica queens hospital premature, almost didn't make it , had to have blood transplant. i could of left this earth way to quickly, but god wouldn't let me go.. lived in Brooklyn New york, until, and incident had us relocate, living with 6 other cousins and my sister, i became strong .. having a uncle who decided to touch on us for his own satisfaction brought me back to reality, after a while i felt alone my brother and sisters same dad different mom there full black. born to a Puerto Rican women, and bajan man, I was different, never considered black because when my hair gets wet its curly, and long. so i cut it off to start over. I never could understand why the black girls, disliked me. high school i had associates but never best friends, i had one, who's been there all along, began understanding things for what they were really worth. fell in love with a amazing person, who opened my eyes to what life and love was really about... despite , that i wasn't complete. I Watched my parents tear each other apart from fighting daily, clearing out furniture from never having anything to eat to being homeless , there was only one, person who was there god. my parents separated and for awhile, i watched my mother, go into depression, and eventually she she got into cocaine.. there was a point in time where my mother, wouldn't come home for days, i was afraid to tell anyone this is what it was. i pretended it was her just going out in partying, it wasn't, she was deep into it , and i tried to be in denial, i had to go to crack house to get my mother, June ,17,2009 i sat there holding her body cold, she promised me no more, and i believed it... for awhile i had the same clothes , had to work at the bowling alley and local hooters that my uncle owned... so that me and my mother could eat.. 18 working and trying to make ends meet, it got hard, the one person i loved, and were off and on, my father hated me, my mother struggling to maintain, i almost lost it all.. i almost let it go..
i finally let, go and decided to, be me Dec 1. i met her, though she isn't what i expected , she's still a life lesson, being naive i fell in love with, what i thought was her, i got into the whole I AM GAY clubbing hang out with the lesbians, becoming something i wasn't, had me in a room full of women who, didn't know much about me but wanted to hurt me, bruised ribs, busted lip.. broken heart, no money phone gone, i rose...now i sit here In September trying to find my self, not tied down... trying to find me you can say I'm gay, im hypocrite , i have a smart mouth but don't judge me until you know me.

Monday, September 6, 2010

Too whom it may concern

From me to you, I send out my respect
Your smile and laugh is one I can’t forget
You calm my soul and make my heart feel at peace;
Speaking of humorous things and lessons we can help or teach
Understand, I want nothing from you but to keep you around ,
if a day goes by without me hearing you my face begins to frown
You have become a daily regimen.
I want you by my side
Im not asking for forever,
But as long as you’re willing to ride
No need to get beside your self,
This not natural for me at all,
Stepping out of element,
I feel 10 feet tall,
I don’t need to be afraid because, within me I have it all
I just want some there, unless, I almost trip and fall,
I can’t promise you anything but I know what i like,
Im not afraid to fight for this because even a friendship is fine, I’ve seen friendships and lovers drift away
I’ll be damned if it happens this time

Heartless has found her match


For a while now frozen cold, I’ve let the inside of me rot deep down into my soul, see I was once beaten by someone who sold, my mind body and spirit, just to help build there own. , I had some complications my heart started to beat slow, I couldn’t control the pain, I played dead for a while so no one would know... That my heart was pure, and my love is gold. See, they have awakened a beast and she has found her match, coming without a welcome, or even a name tag, she was so similar to me …. we were bound to connect like a missing puzzle piece, like a person, I’ve lost and couldn’t forget, she stitched my heart, and released my inner doves, she let me breath within her love she, captured, my heart still heartless but together we remain, both being hurt in our pass heartless we remain Never revealing our feelings to each other just living off, each others, peace…

About Me

my autobiography is my poetry. Anything else is just a footnotes